well, folks, this is it! see you in a week! i leave for Camp in the morning!

today sucks. today just really, really sucks.

i got some news about camp that just really really pisses me off and worries me and has me feeling really down and exhausted and deflated, and has had me crying my eyes out for the past hour. and now i'm just so exhausted, buuuuuut.... i dunno, as of right now i am having a hard time wanting to leave on Saturday.

we're not cooking for ourselves up at Camp this year. because it's "too hard" for the ward leaders to take cooking equipment up to Camp. which i think is total crap.

it sounds stupid, and it probably is. i'm probably too invested emotionally into Camp, i'm probably too attached to it for my own good. but every year i see some piece of the camping portion of Camp get chipped away, and every year i feel like Camp is slowly losing an incredibly important part of what makes it so special.

i dunno. i was going to go all into it and write it all out but i'm just too tired for it. which leaves everything looking pretty lame, like, why would she be so upset about this?? the girls don't do hardly anything for themselves anymore, and where is the learning if you're not doing? if you don't work hard and gets your hands dirty, how can you ever learn? how can you ever build relationships and figure out about teamwork if you're not actually working together? teenagers are only willing to learn so much from being talked at in a classroom setting~ so much of a true gaining of knowledge comes when you're not even necessarilly looking for it.

i dunno. i'm just upset. and i'm sick and tired of leaders who are more concerned about how hard it'll be for them and not concerned enough about creating a full and well-rounded experience for the girls.

Camp is for the GIRLS. it is for THEM to learn and for THEM to try new things and be challenged. so when i get there, i'm going to do my best to be positive and enthusiastic, despite my own personal concerns and worries. i might be incredibly upset, but like i said-- Camp is for THEM. not for ME.

I AM EXHAUSTED.

26 tye-dye tshirts is alot of work D:

my girls and i have a name for our group to get all jazzed up for for Camp!

we're the RP3/4 Hippies!

XDD everyone's picking Hippie-tastic names and we're gonna flower power it up. it's gonna be awesome.

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seriously, family! GO TO BED so i can get my homework done!!! DDX

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TWENTY FOR HOURS UNTIL WATCHMEN

life apparently has it out for me today -_-

i missed my bus this morning at 9:18 because the bus decided to come at 9:10, then i missed the bus AGAIN at 11:06 because it decided to come at 11:00. and now the next bus isn't until 1:06pm YoY so much for Political Science and Speech class today.

....

dude, i am going to be at the bus at, like, 12-freakin-30 xD if that bus shows up early again WA-BAAMM!!! i'll be READY for it.

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at least it's raining!! it's been raining solid for about a week and a half, and it should keep going for another week. if we're lucky and it keeps raining like this between now and the summer, maybe we won't have to be on drought alert anymore! i would love to not be in a drought this summer*.

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in other news, i have an assistant Girls' Camp director finally!! 8D my MOM! i know that sounds pretty lame, but my mom is awesome and we'll have good fun together at Camp ^^ it'll be very different from last year~ which is nice because i don't think i could run -everything- again this year like i did last year xD;; that was NUTS. i learned -FAST- that it pays to have a good partner. and my mother is certainly a very good partner ^^

also, one of these days, i'm gonna get my dad up to Camp. i think it'd be good for him.

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and in other OTHER news!!

thanks everyone who gave advice on which Obama picture i should put on my wall 8D i ended up choosing the 2nd one. now to choose where it'll go on my wall** xDD;;

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in other Other OTHER news---- WATCHMEN IN 17 MORE DAYS***.




*i perfer to think of our aquafers as half FULL, rather than half EMPTY ^_~

**hey, something to kill time until i try to make it to the bus again! woo!

***17 is less then 20 and therefore allows me to start the countdown without feeling too horribly nerdy xD .........right? ......okay, so i'm still horribly nerdy of Watchmen. lol.

SO.

CAMP IS HAPPENING IN JULY.

and i'm currently raising money for it ^^

my girls and i are making/selling chocolates.

$10 a box.

they look like this.



THEY'RE DELICIOUS. HOMEMADE. FABULOUS. AMAZING.

would anyone here be interested in purchasing chocolates?

WILL IT WORK THIS TIME?!?!?!

*EDIT* IT'S GOOD ENOUGH.